I’m used to my dash being filled with 90% EXO (ever since that fuckin’g group debuted every single shawol-tumblr I used to stalk converted) and maybe some pretty pictures of food, animals and other things that’s nice.
Why is everyone so emo? I mean, it’s wednesday, right? xD No but seriously, half of the tumblrs that I follow and that actually are active (like.. only 10 of them) have been posting these “I’m so ugly, I will die alone” and pictures of… well, yeah, shit like death, blood, razors and other stuff that kind of affects you. Seriously guise, stop it or you’ll make me despressed as well.
Random, but recently I’ve been thinking about “depression” in an objective, Jasminutane-ish and rather realistic way (if I may say so). This psycho shit all shrinks always go on about… I’ve heard it SO MANY TIMES (‘cuz IRL every singe one of my friends has been diagnosed with depression or some other mood changing disorder and is reguarly visiting a shrink. Lucky me I don’t have very many friends then or have been affected.) so I’m kind of tired of it, and I’m starting to think in new ways.
I’d rather belive in science and things that you can explain in a logical way, so I guess that’s why I’m starting to doubt psycology (even though I aced my psycology course in high school, lol). I mean, seen from an antropologic/biologic/evolutionary perspective; the meaning of life is pretty much to enhance and pass along your genes.
That’s why we’re naturally surviving due to something called The Natural Selection. It’s a necessary subprocess in evolution, and it’s thanks to that we’ve come so far today.
And I don’t think a bed/weak psyche is a very good gene to pass along. I know you feel like “it’s just the way it is”, but seriously, everything has a beginning, everythig has roots. I mean, I’m socially awkward and can’t conversate normally with people, but I’m not blaming that on myself or “that just how I am”, that’s because I was raised in the woods(omfg, lol), had another etnicity than my other calssmates and naturally became an outcast and someone you could throw crap on without giving a shit.
But I’m not complaining, I just endured the shit and tried to improve myself, and now things aren’t that bad (everything can always get worse, so you should always be thankful it isn’t xD)~ Sure, I’m still awkward and weird, and it DID affect me, but hey? It’s life. Shit happens, but life goes on, unconditionally. If you’re gonna stay stuck in a difficult position then you only have YOURSELF to blame.
You know what I really dislike? Even more than prestige-depressed posts on facebook? All these “reblog this video of this suicidal girl, or else she’ll kill herself”. Okay? It’s not that I don’t care, I just respect her choices in life. Sure, maybe they aren’t that great but it’s her decision and I shouldn’t butt in. If the girl wanna commit suicide then let her. It’s her fucking life, her fucking responsibility, her fuck lack of selfrespect and if she wanna waste her life so easily then I don’t wanna be a part of it. (Again; Natural slection - the weakest die first.)
So yeah, if you can’t help yourself then who will? If you can’t love yourself, then who will? I sure as hell won’t, so you better get your shit together. I’m not saying that I hate depressed people (I sound like such a bitch rite nao, omg), only that things will get better if you at least try. And even if it doesn’t end the way you want, at least you tried. I’m sure you’d rather die with the regret of having tried, than with regret of not even giving it an attempt. :)
Okay, I have no idea what I just wrote, my fingers just typed along with the flow of my stupid thoughts xD