Bye~~

As some of you might have taken notice of (or maybe even read, even though I’m pretty sure ppl ignore my personal rants XD) I started university at the beginning of this week and now my life pretty much orbits around studying and avoiding the sophomores who constantly tries to get us drunk, lol, life as a freshman is much harder than you think, at least if you live where I live xD So there’s no time left for me to run this kpop-tumblr, sadly. (Though I won’t delete it, I’m to sentimental for that XD)

Thank you all for following me during this past year, through all my weird posts/rants, minor hiatuses and my never ending fangirling, spams and obsessions~^^

11043 likes later, 9825 posts later and 92 followers later; the tumblr Jasminutane is now terminated.

How do you know that school really has started?

When you mom suddenly comments that she hasn’t seen you smile since sunday ê_ê

Old selca TT_TT 

Oh however, I’m just gonna rant *cough complain and whine cough* a little bit, ‘cuz university is a bitch and the official classes haven’t even begun yet xD

But it’s SO much information to take in at once ê___ê I don’t even comprehend half of it xD I already have this 2 inch fat pile of papers that I’m supposed to read but common, I barely have time to eat >w<

And our campus is HUUUUGE ;A; I mean there’s about 37k students here so there’s no wonder, but it’s really confusing and I’ve gotten lost multiple of times (doesn’t help that I’m totally alone ‘cuz I suck at making friends either T_T). Today we had this tour around campus and it honestly didn’t help much. Haha, and our tour guide randomly let us off somewhere that was supposed to be in the Nature Sciences Building but…. when I finally managed to get out? I was infront of the physiology building, so then I had to figure out which way that would take me home as well xD

Most annoying thing about university is that everything… well, it surely consumes your time, I haven’t been able to find time to update myself with kpop, listen to new songs or anything like that since I satrted yesterday (so I kind of feel like all life in me is slowly draining away xD)

Oh well, right now (I just got home, alsfhalskf) I need to go through some papers, I probably should take a peak in my social studies book and then I need to get ready ‘cuz we’re having dinner with our “phösare” in an hour ê____ê and then we’re obviously supposed to go to the student union house and hit the groggery (I’m glad I don’t get drunk easily and never get hangovers. ‘Cuz the lessons start at 8:30am tomorrow morning XD)

Oh, and we got these fatass mother fu***** compendiums with a summary of high school mathematics ;A; Obviously, we’re supposed to learn that by ourselvs until out next course (Statistic Methods) starts next month. And they told us to reapeat our high school chemisty as well. fml.

I’m starting to wonder why I even considered to continue studying after high school. xD

First day at school (university) today O____O

Didn’t go… that bad, but on the other hand; I didn’t have any expectations at all, so there was nothing to get disappointed about xD

Oh well, my new class consists of 40-50 persons and I can’t recall any of their names XD 

They seem nice, I dunno, I didn’t really talk to anyone XD *forever awkward*

But I guess I’ll get to know them ‘cuz our “generals” has planned LOTS AND LOTS of group and “get to know each other” activities xD (And they’re going to make a big hole in my wallet as well XD)

Oh and btw….. first thing I did today at the university was to break a pen. And I accidentaly flung a big part of it straight into the crotch of a guy in my new class. Oh yeah, forever awkward. XD

Personal rant: I’m not fucking ready.

So, I’m starting university in like… well, 33h AND I’M NOT READY AT ALL ;A; Why did I even sign up for that life trap?!?! I’m gonna major in Enviromental Health or some shit, I dunno, it sounded nice when I applied earlier this year ‘cuz I really like nature and to nag and such.

But my first class is in “Society, Individuals & Enviroment”, which is basically a base course in the society subject for us geeks who studied nature science in high school, like I did.

AND WHY DO YOU THINK I DID THAT?!

‘Cuz I freaking loath that society-shit ;A; aslkfjlaskjflaksf, FML. I DON’T WANNA STUDYYYYYYYYYYYy——!! *shrill scream* ‘cuz face it, me hitting the books is a very rare sight. I didn’t study almost at all during high school ‘cuz.. I dunno, shit was piece a cake?  I’m asian? no, jk, our lectures was interesting; about space, natural selection, and such - and since I listened well during our classes I didn’t have to read that much.

But now I’ll probably have to TT_TT

Wanna know the worst part?

I have an examination in that course in less than a month.

Dafuq.

School hasn’t even started yet.

And I’m already having a mental breakdown.

Reblog so people know who you are

kunoichiis:

Name: Jasmin

Tumblr Name: Jasminutane

Nickname(s): Hitler, midget, idiot, etc (they’re mainly insults, tbh xD) 

Birthday: 09.03 (93)

Relationship Status: Going steady with my computer… xD

Random fact(s) about you: Self-claimed conspiracy theoretican, fangirl & catlady. Obsessed with kpop, food and The Second World War. Laughs like a lumberjack and curses like a pirate. Likes to trouble people with my long ass rants about pretty much everything.

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My eyes are hurting.

Seriourly, I’ve endured 5 days in a row without any sleep and I didn’t take more damage than maybe the usual “zombie state” after staying awake for the first 72 hours ê___ê

Last night (or rather: this morning) I didn’t manage to fall asleep until after 8am, and I had to get up at nine, so no, I didn’t get alot of sleep xD

But why are my eyes hurting so badly? They’re all red and stingy >w< Was it b’cuz of all the fangirl spazzing and flailing over EXO-M and B.A.P and Onew? 

It feels like that’s the cause, for some reason xD

(Oh god, I didn’t sign up for this when I became a fangirl TTwTT)

It’s 05:40 in the morning and I haven’t gone to sleep yet.

Wae?

EXO-M and their Ceci fuckery.

B.A.P and crash and I remember ft. Daehyun and shit.

ONEW’S TEASER PIC FOR DAZZLING GIRL, ASFLKASFAS.

Stupid fangirl feels, go away TT__TT I have to get up in 3 hours xD

Personal rant: What is wrong with you people?

I’m used to my dash being filled with 90% EXO (ever since that fuckin’g group debuted every single shawol-tumblr I used to stalk converted) and maybe some pretty pictures of food, animals and other things that’s nice.

But today?

Why is everyone so emo? I mean, it’s wednesday, right? xD No but seriously, half of the tumblrs that I follow and that actually are active (like.. only 10 of them) have been posting these “I’m so ugly, I will die alone” and pictures of… well, yeah, shit like death, blood, razors and other stuff that kind of affects you. Seriously guise, stop it or you’ll make me despressed as well.

Random, but recently I’ve been thinking about “depression” in an objective, Jasminutane-ish and rather realistic way (if I may say so). This psycho shit all shrinks always go on about… I’ve heard it SO MANY TIMES (‘cuz IRL every singe one of my friends has been diagnosed with depression or some other mood changing disorder and is reguarly visiting a shrink. Lucky me I don’t have very many friends then or have been affected.) so I’m kind of tired of it, and I’m starting to think in new ways.

I’d rather belive in science and things that you can explain in a logical way, so I guess that’s why I’m starting to doubt psycology (even though I aced my psycology course in high school, lol). I mean, seen from an antropologic/biologic/evolutionary perspective; the meaning of life is pretty much to enhance and pass along your genes.

That’s why we’re naturally surviving due to something called The Natural Selection. It’s a necessary subprocess in evolution, and it’s thanks to that we’ve come so far today.

And I don’t think a bed/weak psyche is a very good gene to pass along. I know you feel like “it’s just the way it is”, but seriously, everything has a beginning, everythig has roots. I mean, I’m socially awkward and can’t conversate normally with people, but I’m not blaming that on myself or “that just how I am”, that’s because I was raised in the woods(omfg, lol), had another etnicity than my other calssmates and naturally became an outcast and someone you could throw crap on without giving a shit.

But I’m not complaining, I just endured the shit and tried to improve myself, and now things aren’t that bad (everything can always get worse, so you should always be thankful it isn’t xD)~ Sure, I’m still awkward and weird, and it DID affect me, but hey? It’s life. Shit happens, but life goes on, unconditionally. If you’re gonna stay stuck in a difficult position then you only have YOURSELF to blame.

You know what I really dislike? Even more than prestige-depressed posts on facebook? All these “reblog this video of this suicidal girl, or else she’ll kill herself”. Okay? It’s not that I don’t care, I just respect her choices in life. Sure, maybe they aren’t that great but it’s her decision and I shouldn’t butt in. If the girl wanna commit suicide then let her. It’s her fucking life, her fucking responsibility, her fuck lack of selfrespect and if she wanna waste her life so easily then I don’t wanna be a part of it. (Again; Natural slection - the weakest die first.)

So yeah, if you can’t help yourself then who will? If you can’t love yourself, then who will? I sure as hell won’t, so you better get your shit together. I’m not saying that I hate depressed people (I sound like such a bitch rite nao, omg), only that things will get better if you at least try. And even if it doesn’t end the way you want, at least you tried. I’m sure you’d rather die with the regret of having tried, than with regret of not even giving it an attempt. :)

Okay, I have no idea what I just wrote, my fingers just typed along with the flow of my stupid thoughts xD 

My dad thinks I’m a nazi

I posted this on my facebook and my dad caught me~ (omfg, I’m starting in a new class in two weeks, I have to get rid of my past, my facebook, my blog & tumblr before that, lol xD)

And my dad was like: “are you inlove with Hitler”?

I mean… no I’m not, and I’m definitely not a nazi, but srsly, this version of “pokémon theme song” was kind of fun… xD (But everytime my dad catch a glimpse of my computer screen I’m either ooggling korean boys…. or Hitler so.. uhm.. yeah xD)

So yeah, my future imaginary, derpy marriage with Taemin; clearly, I’ll be the one wearing the tux, while Taemin gets the dress xD 

HAHAHAHAHA oh god, I feel like such a creeper/stalker ê___ê 

[UPDATE]: why do i feel like i’ve done something wrong

Oh God, Taemin’s photoshoot for Nylon TV Korea…

Sorry, I lied xD (not intentionally though)

I said I would be back and everything THIS night, but I lost track of time (you guise have seriously no idea how long it takes for me to eat dinner xD Didn’t finish my quorn  beef and rice until 8pm ê__ê Yup, I’m a really slow eater, haha xD) and then I got kinda stuck watching Bones - lol, I’ve watched 2 seasons in 3 days, is that even healthy? XD

Oh well, but at 1:30am I was like “woho, it’s tumblr time!” but then this thing came up and I had to take care of it immediately and I didn’t finish until now, 3am TT_TT” (Yeah… things comes up during that time in the day night in my “life” xD) Sooo… I’ll be tomorrow instead ^^ Hahahaha, oh god, I have soooo much dash to scroll though… xDD

Yo! I know I haven’t been online and active here for almost a week (but I’ve gained like 9 new followers, wtf xD) and I’m not sure “when I’ll be back”, ‘cuz… things in life are just kinda hectic right now and I think I have to deal with that first. Though I’m sure I won’t be able to live without tumblr for more than like… 24 hours? I dunno, I’ve ignoring my usual blog, youtube and other sites as well, lol x’D Haha, me and some friends of mine started this page on facebook (it’s like a fan-page to ourselves, lol XD <3) a couple a days ago and I’ve been totally immersed in it since ê___ê But it’s so fun and I can’t help it, haha x’D Oh well; ‘til I’m back - Take care guys! :D And to my new followers - Thank you so much for following, haha, I’m sorry I’ve been such a lazy ass here on tumblr, but I’ll change that soon! ;3